Journey Indivineduality

"Stop chasing shadows just enjoy the ride" - Morcheeba

 

Who I AM is greater than any point of view “I” can take.
When I AM aware of that I can begin to let go.

If I AM living by values my “I” has stolen from others.
I will not value MY power.

It isn’t what I know, that’s showing off.
It’s what I AM and do, that is the criterion for my ME.

What I AM and what I AM doing is always perfect.

The easiest way to show ME who I AM NOT, is to motivate ME.
Motivate ME and I tend to use ‘positive thinking’ to maintain my identity which I created for myself.
Positive thinking tries to keep in place the ups and ignore the downs.

Life is full of ups and downs like a rollercoaster.
When I AM up I AM up. When I AM down I AM down.
All I have to do is acknowledge the truth.
The truth will set ME free.

It seems my identity is forever trying to create FROM something which means I AM only changing something’s shape. To create, I start creating from nothing and I have something.

Memo to the world: If at first I don’t succeed, give up. To succeed I know there is nothing to be done. I don’t do anything I don’t have to.

It seems I have on many occasions experienced my inherent power and perfection. This has been on those occasions when I have achieved something I was not capable of doing and which I have done on the spur of the moment, without thinking.

It’s all mine. I AM the person responsible for my life. I AM the one who created all the bullshit. Knowing this is a heavy burden. It is also liberating. It’s all up to me. When I AM not taking responsibility for my life I AM destroying it. When I AM taking responsibility for my life I have just created my own universe. Tough shit!

When I feel like I AM not self supportive I look for environmental support. Environmental support shows ME I AM not perfect. That’s bullshit! I AM self supportive AND perfect. Anytime I like I can recognize mySELF and that will give me the energy to complete anything.

Right now, what AM I trying to pretend I don’t know? People have to be really smart to pretend they are stupid. As soon as I AM ready a whole new world will emerge. Everything will change. “I” will never be the same. What more do I want than ME? I do more when I want ME. When I have ME there is no more to do. I AM I.

In my universe I AM two. I am creator and perceiver. I created and caused it all. I AM like everything else, the centre of the universe. It all starts and ends with me. I created by perceiving. The more I look into the space of time and more I look into the time of space the more I see the back of my own head.

I AM always just catching up on the best glimpse of what it is that I AM. I do this by creating at a speed faster than light and use reality as a mechanism to “catch up” on what I have already done – just to get the glimpse of what it is that I AM.

Words like fantastic, unbelievable, miraculous do not begin to relay the potential for power, love, joy, health, happiness that is possible in all my relationships.

What do I need to get on with joy? Money, position, title, security, looks, personality, ability? Whatever it is I have just destroyed ME as I will now have to become, instead of being, being, being….a being.

Most of us go out and buy mounds of gifts to show people that we love them. The greatest gift for anyone is ourselves. That requires a lot of effort and heartbreak as it means we have to give up ourselves. My gift to you is me, your gift to me is you. Our gift to the world is ourselves. Just me, just you…hi there!

Happiness in giving must also be happiness in receiving without responsibility nor obligation. Add anything to that and I have just manipulated those people in my life.

Would I be willing to support them in their lives? I AM aware that my central intention is to make a worthwhile contribution to the lives of others. Parents need to be willing to have their children contribute to them. All people want to do is make a contribution.

Togetherness is simple; lets participate – that’s togetherness. Perhaps there is a type of sharing that leaves me with more of myself, not less. The more of me I put out into the world the more I get back. It is my creation; it seems for the purposes, of getting a glimpse of what it is that I AM.

I have become aware that at time I operate out of fear. When I don’t like something I seem to create something in its place, like a limiting belief I can trust. By creating something in its place I AM creating ME and splitting my SELF.

My happiness, from that point, will be dependant on which I, I AM operating out of. Operating out of ME does not need any other ME.

Freedom is an inner thing; it's something that exists in the person that IS living, now. If I do not feel free it is because I have not accepted MY freedom. I AM waiting for something to happen or for someone to give it to ME. I AM going to wait a long long….long time….forever!

I can remove only those things that stop me from happening; I cannot make myself happen just as I cannot make my heart beat. Removing what stops me makes me free. Flowing with my life, being the creative center of it, stops me from rowing against the river.

O sure, I AM alright and that’s all I have got – being right. To make a mistake, to risk failure, is a sure sign that I AM growing. If I cannot risk everything, sorry, anything, I AM stuck, repeating the things I have prepared for; life is the university that gives me the education I need to grow, to live.

The ultimate of right is ‘dead right’ and that is where I end and begin. That place where my structure breaks down to form a higher version of myself, just like every known physical evolving phenomenon in the universe.

People who are always competing don’t know themselves; they think that by beating someone else they will have found something to compare themselves to. They need someone to compare themselves to, so that, they can find out who they are. People who know themselves don’t care who is winning.

Knowing yourself is that which creates life and your own reality of it. It is your wholehearted participation. It is your expressing and sharing of yourself and your natural ability to be responsible for the whole of life! This, creates miracles in your relationships and in the whole of this world.

Looking at “what is so” takes the effort and struggle out of life. I do not have to look for the Garden of Eden. I AM in it. All I have to do is open my eyes and I will see it, see that I AM deluding myself by looking for something already at hand. It’s a beautiful world if I want to see it.

Time is an illusion. Every THING is in time. Everything means and is ‘so what’ which is actually ‘what’s so’. If what is is what’s so then so what? If what is is more important than what isn’t I have just ended a game in which I will win.

If what isn’t is more important that what is I have just begun a game in which I will lose. You know what? I play games all the time in which what isn’t is more important than what is. Go fly a kite. Jump in, I might like it. That takes risk. Risk is frightening like life. Life is ME. Jump in and start living!

Participating in my life, being part of it, is the only satisfaction there is. I have an option in life. I can either ride in the cart of life or life will ride over me. In life I get everything when I want what I get. I will get what I want when I AM ready. When I realize a desire all that is happening is that I AM ready to inform myself of what coming up. Life will give me everything. I will always get what I want when I want what I get.

There are unreal opportunities for me. They will only reveal themselves when I get to see them. This does not mean getting ready but being ready for my life.

When I AM fine I AM fine. My fineness depends on me. I am totally responsible. Responsibility is not a duty it is a choice. By accepting that choice of mine I AM fine.

Right is what is intuitively right, what rings true. Right now I know exactly what is right for me. Know one else knows or ever will. I AM a sensitive machine and can at any moment – right now – feel what’s right and simply do it. There is no effort or struggle needed. It is what I AM supposed to do. It’s mine, mine alone…it’s ME. Can I feel my body? Can you sit on a chair? Great, then I know what is right.

Wrong implies I have made a mistake. It is not possible to make a mistake. If I believe I have made a mistake, what I AM comparing it to for ME to reach that conclusion? If I believe I have made a mistake I end by regretting what I have done.

Regretting what I have done destroys the Truth of ‘what is’, which is then the cause of guilt, which is a form of self-hatred which is the only sin there is as I AM Perfect! Let’s affirm my past. Say goodbye to it and get to work where it matters now.

I AM caught in the middle of what is right and what is wrong. Both are opposites like light and dark. By the significance I have placed on them I have created these and they both exist because of the resistance of each other. Remove the polarities, the resistance, and I have neither right nor wrong, light nor dark. I have nothing but a whole lot of potential energy.

People have to have things. People have to do things. People have to be things. Start off by being. I don’t have to do, I don’t have to have, I just AM.

When I can really accept that I AM not OK my acceptance will allow me to be OK. By that acceptance I have no necessity to prove that I AM OK. When I stop the bullshit of proving I AM OK unbelievably I will find it’s OK to be no OK. Now when I can get that it’s OK to be not OK then I can be the way I AM. To be the way I AM is really OK.

If I AM not wanting to do what I AM doing, I will, if my friends do not understand or agree, make myself feel ashamed, or worse, guilty. By taking responsibility for what I AM doing I will get my friends to understand that that’s what I AM doing. So what!

Being anxious, guilty, ashamed, depressed is the act I use to cover feeling that I don’t want to face. When I attack myself with these feelings I feel bleaaaaaaaaaaach. These are all games I have contrived to punish myself so I can avoid taking responsibility for what I have done.

I don’t know exactly what’s going to happen. The future, the next moment is not known now, not ever. My rational mind will disagree and will not want to concur, as it seems afraid.

What God wants me to do is what I AM doing. He does not have to tell me what to do because what I AM doing is what he wants – God is my Will. What I AM is not pure HIM either for God is Good but I AM neither good nor bad, I just AM. So I enjoy what I AM.

After I have said all the bad things and when I have said all the good things I haven’t said I will find that what I really wanted to see is ‘love’. There is no need to search for love; it is where I AM coming from.

Love is allowing the other person to be who is he is and also who he isn’t, where he is and where he isn’t. Have I experienced unconditional love? Yes sure, I know I know I love you. What I really want to get more than anything else is I know I love ME!

Why be afraid of love, it is the greatest contribution I can make. It needs commitment and I AM bigger than commitment. So I AM not afraid of love.

I cannot tell me how to walk or talk. I can only tell me things that I pretend I think I know. That is wasted energy. Free flowing life makes me high. Children are always high as they do not waste their time trying to be other than what they are.

Remove the mask that is reality and I find a true ME not as burdensome as that mask that is not me. The reality of life is making the self into the self. I think I do not matter as I AM. I was taught that what feels good must be bad. I AM going to run into a number of ‘being bad’ to see if that gets me into trouble. That would make good being right again.

Guilt is a form of self hatred. It is also used by me to feel ok when I have done something I promised myself I would never do again. To justify my action I make myself feel guilty. This guilt I use to hide from the pain of awareness and all I AM doing is blocking my energy flow which forces me into reasons that further stops my energy flow and creates more guilt.

Why feel guilty for something that is not a mistake? Accept the responsibility. That is what’s right. Guilty is living in the past. I can’t do anything about it. Live in the present.

The present is now now now this moment. By letting go, now will allow things to happen. The reason I don’t is because of fear. Fear is the anticipation of what I don’t know. This causes points of view that do not allow me to relax. The inability to relax is the fear of letting go. It is all rational mind. Rational mind wants to know what will happen if I let go. There is no way of knowing so you I won’t let go. So I AM not relaxed. So I have fear. So I AM in my past beliefs. So there is no energy for me. So I AM stuck, with fear, tenseness guilt and self-hatred.

Ashamed is what I feel when I think that what I have done is not the right thing to do socially. I AM ashamed when I have the audacity to judge myself. I should never judge myself or anything. If I AM doing something I AM doing it because I want to do it. If I AM honest with myself that is all I can be doing when I AM doing it.

Life is no other place than now now nowwwwwwww!!!!!!
And that’s the truth. For openers, the truth is, I AM.
The truth needs no justification. Add anything to the truth and I destroy it. Take anything away, I murder ME. The truth does not MEAN anything and needs no understanding, it just IS.

To be or not to be?
Why destroy myself and my energy by not being…that’s enlightenment. Enlightenment is knowing.
Knowing?
Yeah, that I ‘got it’.
Got it?
Yeah, that I was stuck.
Stuck?
Yeah, on a point of view that I knew nothing about, and even though I knew nothing I believed it.
Ohhh, I see.
Yeah…that’s enlightenment. Congratulations.

When I AM in the now I AM ok. When I AM not I AM either living in the past or fantasizing about the future. Both the future and the past are inescapable yet they do not exist.

I destroy myself when I try to fly. I should leave that for the birds. I get back to ME. I stop the ‘bullshit’. I mentally clean up the mess I created. Nobody can help me do that, it’s all up to me.

A Master is simply someone who found out in life there is something far more important than answers. It takes a certain kind of courage to be here. When I AM here I AM the Master. When I AM somewhere else I AM mastered. I AM the IT. Anything more and I AM destroying my inherent liveliness. Anything less and I AM destroying my inherent power.

I am different, I am the same. The way I express myself in the world is the way I walk, talk, the way I smile; and this has taken ME a whole lifetime to put together. It’s the way people see me and often the way they don’t. Actually I AM not my act. I AM ME. my mask is not me. I know that.

Believing is seeing, seeing is believing. I tend to go from belief to belief and each time I get stuck. This is ok for a while; looking for a change. But what I do is accept my beliefs as reality and so do not notice I have become an obstruction and a handicap as I have stopped looking.

Beliefs may be useful for a while, until I AM ready, but they hide the truth. My actual eventual experience is the truth. Understanding is the booby trap of life.

Understanding means I have an agreement tucked away somewhere in my mind. When I AM out of my mind I AM into experience. Accepting experience as it is, life works. Experience is the only thing I have to move me to the next moment. Beliefs keep me stuck.

If I AM operating against my beliefs I AM operating against my reality. When I try to go against ‘what’s so’ I AM confusing my mind which means I AM left with resisting, solving, helping, or changing things. That means trying to move from somewhere to somewhere. To move from here to there I must first know that I AM here. That means finding out where I AM at.

Finding out where I AM allows me to move from here to there. Knowing my current reality means I can move to my future reality.

Today is a new day. I am looking forward to today as I have never experienced it before. I am looking forward to seeing what it holds, and I won’t bring yesterdays thought into today and ruin today.

Today is today. Not yesterday, not tomorrow. Life is not a destination. It is continuity, a process. Everything is related and interdependent. By participating and flowing with the process I will realize there is nowhere to go but ‘be here now’. That’s where it’s all at.

When I consider the means of achieving something and decide against it I destroy my power and waste energy. This robs me of satisfaction, of being high. It’s the only thing I want.

Kill my rational mind and do what I WANT. My rational mind is destroyed when I expect what I want without knowing how it will come to be. Everything works when I choose what I want. When I want what I have got you I be satisfied.

To go forward into the next step close your eyes and just choose it. Choosing what I want is voting with my life. Voting with my life is energizing.

Decisions limit me since I believe I must choose from whatever is presented. Choices however are far ranging and although some of my choices may seem unreasonable, because I have placed significance on them, it still does not destroy them as choices. I AM always in a mental-state ready to receive.

Perfection is not a doing, by not doing I reach perfection. Perfection is a state of accepting what is, what’s happening. What’s happening is perfect as I can see. This universe is absolutely perfect. Perfect is things as they are. Try to change them and I AM left with bullshit.

I AM and I AM not God. Only God is Good. I AM neither therefore I AM not God. It took a long time to find out I knew that all along. But because I want to play hide and seek with myself I have not recognised it. By not recognizing it I avoid taking responsibility for my life. I will pretend that I did not know. Or I can play in my universe. And isn’t it strange I can stop pretending any time I please. I can at any time choose to remember that in my universe I AM my own responsible God.

By the amazing grace of God he allowed us to be God.
When I keep saying a thing the way it really is eventually my word is the law of the universe. I just enjoy the paradise I have created.

Here is where it is
Here is when it is
I in the moment of time is all there is
I here now is all there is
If that’s all true then great, I AM God.
The only way to know you I succeeded is when I AM satisfied
IAM satisfied when I have completed it.
Incompleteness means it is not the end.
The end is the beginning.

With love to whoever reads this from Steven Freedom
steven.freedom [@] indivineduality com